May 2012
2 posts
Lux, I think you'll enjoy this
Variation On the Word Sleep Margaret Atwood I would like to watch you sleeping, which may not happen. I would like to watch you, sleeping. I would like to sleep with you, to enter your sleep as its smooth dark wave slides over my head and walk with you through that lucent wavering forest of bluegreen leaves with its watery sun & three moons towards the cave where you must descend, towards...
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April 2012
17 posts
Dear Andie,
Being drunk IS exquisite. I do not remember that moment though….
I know what you are saying about Parker taking you away from you. Although we are miles apart, in a way, I can relate. I have no christian lover waiting to throw holy water on my head in attempts to save me nor did I just spend the last two months in Bolivia but I know what it feels like to not want a guy to...
Dear Lux,
I’m sitting on my rooftop, just smoked my 4/20 cigarette I rolled with my parents weed before I left. And I just got really sad…
And a little overwhelmed…
My dad and I had this conversation the other day that I really wanted to share with you, but haven’t had the time. My parents are leaving tomorrow and then I’ll have all the time in the world… to...
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Dear Andie,
A lot of thoughts have been rushing around inside my head and it feels like if I don’t let them go, let them go free and say what they need to say, then they will claw their way out of me. In fact, I feel them in this every moment jumping around inside the tops of my fingers as if almost bursting through the skin.
Do you ever feel like you live in two alternate universes? A universe...
For myself I hold no preferences among flowers, so long as they are wild, free, spontaneous. ~Lux
Andie,
I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger than reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn’t impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one...
Dear Lux,
That sounds so terrifying about the scary movie, especially the state you were in! I would have freaked out. They took smiley face off of netflix… fuckers. Two extremely prominent figures in my high life died while I was in South America, maybe they just couldn’t get along without the other, or without me as the instigator…
I wish I was with you terribly. No matter...
Andie,
I am high in my room again (as usual) and decided I wanted to watch smiley face. So I go on youtube and actually click the link to “Smiley”….a horror movie. With blood. And murder. So naturally I start freaking out because i’m alone in my room high and can’t figure out how to make it stop playing. So then I look onto the side bar and the most comforting...
Lux,
We’re teenagers, and by society’s definition, we don’t have souls. So we put on makeup (or rather take it off), dress nicely, get good grades, and wash our dishes after we eat, to make it seem as if we’re “human”. But what I think, our souls are more alive and exquisite than our adult counter parts ever have and ever could be. We’re forever apart of the fire generation, with nothing but ash...
Dear Andie,
It’s eleven o’clock at night. I’m trying to write a speech for rotary which i will give in approximately 11 hours. All I can think of talking about is how i’m not the person they think I am. Dr. Crisp said the speech should be telling them “something to let them get to know me better” so of course, they expect me to write about the “presence...
Andie~
I’m emailing you because I’m in my 5th hour online class and I’m so drunk I can’t figure out how to log on to my class. Oopss…. I swear every time I log on it’s supposed to be “jessicamoore” and the password is password so I don’t know whjats going wrong. So yeah, thats pretty funny.
I’m so drunk wow. Every time I try to log on and the...
Lux,
In composing this email, the first and most important thing I want to say is simply thank you. Thank you for staying with me, for consoling all of my tears, and reminding me that its okay to be me. Thank you for always being on my side and standing up for me. Thank you for taking endless sobes with me. Thank you for sharing cigarettes and coffees with me at lunch when we just didn’t...
Dear Andie,
I just realized that ripjeanette can read two ways:
1.) R.I.P Jeanette
2.) “Rip” Jeanette.
Both So appropriate….
Stay Golden Pony Boy,
Lux
